JEFF Chan took the blame for Rain or Shine's heartbreaking loss to Barangay Ginebra on Monday night, struggling to put into words his disappointment after missing a wide-open shot from point-blank range in the dying seconds that could have sent the game into overtime.
"Yeah," said Chan when asked if he blamed himself for their 79-81 loss. "I mean, kasi yun nga eh chance yun di ba pero yeah na-miss ko (yung shot)."
Just moments earlier, the Gilas Pilipinas mainstay was in a perfect position to force extra time after winning the rebound scramble off a Paul Lee three-point miss - no more than a foot or two away from goal with no Ginebra player close enough to stop the shot.
Emerging from a funeral-like Rain or Shine dugout an hour after the match, the former FEU Tamaraw still couldn't seem to believe how he managed to miss that shot.
"I did not really cry, pero naluha ako kasi andon eh walang ibang andoon ako lang mag-isa, wala ako masisi kundi ako," Chan said.
"Frustrated ako," he continued. "And nasayangan ako kasi parang overtime yun eh mabibigyan ko sana ng chance ang team ko na makabawi sa overtime. Sayang talaga."
A disconsolate Chan said he apologized to the entire team inside the dugout and got some consoling words from his teammates and coach Yeng Guiao.
"Nag sorry ako sa kanila, sabi ko, 'P're sorry di ko na-shoot.' Ang sabi nila, 'Ganoon talaga, okay lang,'" he said. "Sabi ni coach binigay namin yung game namin, 'yung chance andoon na eh kailangan namin ng isang panalo pero di namin ginawa yung trabaho so ayun."
Still, Chan vowed to pick himself up and learn from his mistake.
"Maraming natutunan like mga judgment, yung decision-making namin, turnovers," he said. "Na-miss ko (ang shot) pero kailangan ko mag move on may next conference pa naman doon na lang ako babawi."