JOHN Wilson, once tagged as the bad boy of the NCAA during his stint with the Jose Rizal Bombers, admitted he cried like a baby after the Meralco Bolts lost a heartbreaking 82-83 decisio to Barangay Ginebra on Saturday in a PBA Philippine Cup thriller.
“Umiyak talaga ako ng todo kagabi," the vastly improved Wilson said in an interview with Spin.ph. "Ito na ang pinaka-worst na talo sa career ko.”
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“Umiyak talaga ako ng todo kagabi. Ito na ang pinaka-worst na talo sa career ko." - Meralco Bolts guard John Wilson
The streak-shooting guard said he blamed himself for the loss, adding there was no way the Bolts could have been beaten by Japeth Aguilar’s last-gasp three-pointer had he made his two crucial free throws in the final 12 seconds of the game.
“Talagang sinisisi ko sa sarili ko yung talo namin. For me lang ha. Kasi nga, dalawang foul shots, sure win kami. Kaso hindi ko pa nagawa,” he said.
“Pero siguro gagamitin ko ito para mas palakasin ang loob ko at laro ko!”
What made the feeling more frustrating for Wilson was the fact that until the late-game meltdown, Meralco looked well on the way to snapping a losing streak that has now stretched to four losses.
“Masakit. Importanteng importante pa naman sana sa amin yung panalo dun. Kasi tignan mo lalo kaming nabaon sa cellar. Siguro aabutin pa ng ilang araw bago ko makalimutan ang sama ng loob ko,” Wilson.
The former NCAA MVP was so angry at himself after the loss, he said, that he went straight to his hometown of Binangonan instead of his home in Mandaluyong.
“Sa sobrang galit ko sa sarili ko, dito na ko dumiretso, hindi sa bahay (sa Mandaluyong),” said Wilson, who did not deny venting his ire by twice punching his locker in Meralco's dugout at the Mall of Asia Arena.
But Wilson, a Ginebra seventh pick in the 2010 rookie draft, disclosed how his teammates and coach Ryan Gregorio immediately consoled him after the loss.
“Na-touch nga ako. Kasi iba ang pagmamahal at pang-unawa na ibinigay sa akin ng team. Kahit talagang sinisisi ko ang sarili ko, nagawa pa rin nilang magpakita ng suporta,” said Wilson.
“Hindi nga ako nakatikim ng kahit anong masakit na salita kay coach Ryan. Instead, sinabihan niya kong mas pag-igihan ko na lang next game,” he added. “Kaya babawi ako, hindi lang sa salita… kundi gagawin ko.”
The 26-year-old shooting guard said he also got encouraging words from veteran teammate Jared Dillinger in a text message.
“Sabi sa akin ni Kuya Jared: ‘We win as a team, we lose as a team.' Kaya gagamitin ko itong daan para mas maging matapang at buo ang dibdib ko sa court,” said Wilson.
If it's any consolation, Wilson is used to overcoming adversity.
From a mere benchwarmer at Ginebra in his first two seasons, he has risen to become one of the league’s most fearsome gunners, averaging 13.40 points, 5.40 rebounds, 1.5 assists and 1 steal per game including an impressive 40 percent shooting from beyond the arc this conference.
“Yun na lang gagawin kong pambawi. Ang mas i-improve pa ang laro ko,” said Wilson.